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Ryan Adamsadmits he had a “trying” 2018, but says the challenges ultimately led him to positive changes for his health.
On Thursday, the former Whiskeytown frontman, 44,tweeted a pictureof a sobriety pin with the number 60 on it, confirming that it has been almost two months since he last drank or took drugs.
“2018: you brought me to my knees,” he wrote alongside the image of the pin and a selfie in which he’s wearing a denim jacket and sunglasses.
“It turns out that’s where I needed to be: in prayer for everyone here or lost,” he continued. “In these trying times, God bless everyone struggling or on the path to empathy, kindness and recovery. Keep the Faith. & may the Faith keep you. XO.”
Adams hadpreviously confirmedhis continued sobriety in an interview withVanity Fairin September 2017.
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Adams first tweeted that “She didn’t like the Melvins or BladeRunner,” referencing Moore’s comment that she “didn’t choose the right person” when deciding totie the knot in 2009.
“Doomed from the start…” hecontinued the message. “If only I could remember the start lol.”
Adams then revealed to his followers, in a since-deleted tweet, that he allegedly was using drugs so heavily he did not remember their 2009 wedding.
“When someone told me we got married I thought they were joking,” he said. “Then I realized how many painkillers I was taking. Honestly there weren’t enough to numb the shock. Gollygooops”
To make matters worse, Adams went on tocompare his marriageto Moore, 34, to being “stuck to the spiritual equivalent of a soggy piece of cardboard.”
“But it rains on net-a-porter everyday when you’re trapped inside yourself,” he continued. “Take the money I’ll take my pride, any day.”
“There’s not actually a single song about her. Like not one. Fact,” Adams wrote.
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“Thank you for the kind messages. I am speaking with a grief/ crisis counselor. I apologize if I caused anyone any worry. Depression, anxiety/ panic attacks & grief are very real and serious issues. If anyone is suffering I urge you to seek help. And cats,” the musician, who has been open about his struggles with mental health, wrote.
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“I apologize for my remarks. I was trying to be funny. But I have and will always choose to remember the amazing moments. It isn’t classy or ok lessen what was. I am happy for everyone and doing my best.”
The day after the Twitter rant,a source confirmed to PEOPLEthat their relationship had plenty of challenges on both sides.
“Ryan could be terrible to Mandy when they were married,” the source said. “Yes, there were some good times, but he had so many issues. He constantly belittled her. And he was selfish and made everything about him.”
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The insider added that thePrincess Diariesalum “tried so hard to be a good wife and good friend, but he made it impossible.”
After six years of marriage, Moore and Adamsannounced their separationin January 2015. A little over a year later, the pairfinalized their divorcein June 2016.
The actress has since remarried. On Nov. 18, she wedTaylor Goldsmithinan intimate ceremonywith about 50 attendees in the backyard of her Pasadena home.
source: people.com
